Day 2: Now I Know What It's Like To Be A Starving Artist

OK, I miss food. But I do feel much better than yesterday. By 7 PM tonight I will have consumed 102 ounces of milk, yogurt or kefir. I did the math this morning. I would start at 7 AM and drink 6 ounces every 45 minutes throughout the day until 7 PM. For some reason I did the math a little wrong though because I thought that would add up to a gallon but now I realize that it is a little less than a gallon (a gallon is 128 ounces). And I am a little hungry so tomorrow I'll shoot for a gallon.

I am normally a person who does too much thinking. I'm always planning and organizing. I'm also one who lives by the laws of common sense. I am punctual, fast-paced, and aggressive (you can imagine how I drive). I'm not a spacey-type of person and I always lament that I'm not as creative as I would like to be. So, it came as a surprise to me today that I was very lucid in certain areas (like speaking to farmers about how they divide up a 1/4 of a cow and the politics of small-scale farming) but for the most part I am a total space-case.

It has taken a bit of effort to remember exactly what it was I was doing. I've been driving like someone who has no particular place to go. And I've spent long moments staring off into space thinking about nothing. I also took a long leisurely nap with my daughter. These are pretty much positive things for me because I do need to slow down.

But I also feel a slight sense of panic that has come with the apparent loss of control. I like to have my house clean and to be operating right on schedule. But in order to keep up to my usual standards I would have to muster up the strength and willpower that I seem to be saving for something else. So I suppose that I'm letting the housekeeping go and the cooking (a little) and just kind of going with the flow of things and not worrying about time as much.